I really can't stand my lack of money to spend. I have stayed in every weekend for about the past month. I just don't have the money to be able to do it. Everyone is on my case about how they haven't seen me in forever, and where am I, etc. etc. It is just so depressing to have to be like 'Well, I don't have a job, and thus, I have no money, and I have bills that need to be paid every month.
This whole not going out thing has absolutely nothing to do with drinking either, hell, if I wanted to drink I could do it here. It mainly has to do with my lack of socializing. The only people I socialize with right now are my parents, and people at Middlebury who I work with (in my last temp week). It's DEPRESSING. As none of these people are close to being my age.
On top of that, I badly need to get away from here. I'm sick of the same ol' in and out. I want to go to Troy for a weekend, or Boston, or anywhere. But without the cash, that's just not possible.
I hate money, and I hate feeling so depressed.
This weekend I could have gone to Middlebury College to the men's ice hockey games, but instead I stayed at home being bored out of my mind. And why? Because I knew I'd run into all of my parents friends there, and I'd get the "So what are you doing now that you've graduated?" and I thought it'd be better to stay at home being bored than to depress myself even more by having to repeat that I'm unemployed to everyone. It's pretty embarrassing. Although my job hunting and everything that goes along with that is a subject for another time when I have more energy. Because THAT is it's own blog post.
For now, keep your fingers crossed that I hear something about a job!
----------------
Now playing: Black Eyed Peas - Shut Up
via FoxyTunes
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
No comments:
Post a Comment